Weight: 196.0 at 28.9% Target: 185.3

so I couldn't make it through a whole day fasting, but I had a had a hearty low carb meal after my workout

Workout
focused on chest today
started off with 5 dips, then did machines and dumbell press with 40 lb dumbells
I should really get back to the perfect pushup

900 pm

1 organic avocado
2 organic egg yolks (raw)
1/2 organic red cabbage sauteed in lard
big organic pork chop sauteed in lard
1 tbs super plasma
1/2 scoop Grow!

supplements
4 EFAs
Biotest Superfood
Ultrathione (1am, 1pm)

Weight: 189.2 at 27.9% Target: 185.5

ok, so today was bad, real bad...

I couldn't make it to dinner, just had cravings so I popped an anabolic pump before lunch and went to Erik's deli and had a club sandwhich, clam chowder, salt and vinegar chips, and a part of a brownie

later, I had an anabolic pump and had a protein shake (grow and super plasma), naan, hummus, organic yogurt...

then my buddies Tim, Colin, and Scott came over and we had a few beers and tequila then we went to Shalimar and had ton of food, their nihari rocks!

at home I had more organic yogurt with maple syrup and pecans, then apple pie with ice cream

and now my stomach is full of shame and spices

Supplements
EFAs - 1/2 tbs
Ultrathione (1am, 1pm)

Weight: 190.0 at 27.9% Target: 185.7

simple day - night before there was major drama with my girl, maybe I burned up a lot of calories in my sadness, o well...

so big dinner today - tomorrow I will be having a lot of food that is off my diet, including booze - to offset that I will be fasting on Wednesday

6 organic egg yolks (raw)
1 tbs super plasma
3/4 lb organic grassfed beef - medium rare
2 slice yogurt cheese
2 tbs barbecue sauce
1 scoop Grow!

Supplements
EFAS - 1 tbs
Biotest Superfood
Ultrathione (1am, 1 pm)

Weight: 195.5 Target: 185.9

so last night we were out late at a bar in Pleasanton called Redcoats, boy it was dead!!!

luckily I was DD and didn't drink

workout
short workout of chest, back, and shoulders, I tried lunging

so yesterday I had a single big post workout meal

1215pm

3 organic egg yolks - raw
2 organic eggs scrambled w/2 whites
big spoon of salba seed
0.68 lb organic pork chops fried in lard
1/2 organic red cabbage sauteed in lard (with dijon and apcv)
2 scoops Grow!

Supplements
EFAs - 4 capsules
Biotest Superfood
Ultrathione (2 in the PM)

Weight: 199.5 Target: 186.1

woke up late today

simple meal but tasty and healthy

organic red cabbage sauteed in lard with spicy sauce
0.75 lb organic pork chop fried in lard
4 organic egg yolks

Supplements
EFAs
Ultrathione 1 am, 1 pm
Biotest Superfood
1 probiotic

Weight: 199.5 Target: 186.4

so today I went to Great America

didn't eat during the day but at night I had an anabolic pump, then

Armadillo Willy's ribs and bread (fried in lard)

the Koi Garden with Partha and Sudip
good chinese food

then ice cream

Weight: 192.7 Target: 186.6

diet disaster today

I could have kept it together, but i didn't... hmmm...

midday
sushi lunch with friend at work
korean short ribs with rice
a touch of tempura
spicy tuna hand roll
1/2 another roll
1 big roll at the end

why did I get the last one, I was totally full

then I had free popcorn and chocolate at my work, huh?

went home to my folks place but stopped to buy raw milk and ice cream
got a flat tire and went home and had raw milk, ice cream, then outback with my family and I had a vodka gibson and a beer and tons of food, then home with ice cream...

I am not happy acting like this

obviously my Friday weight will be astronomical but I this weekend should tame this stupidity